Exhaustion, elation, despair

Better late than never on the posting. It has been a week I will never forget. Last Tuesday, we elected Barack Obama for president. He wasn't my first choice (I wanted Hilary Clinton), but I'm thrilled to see the changes happening for our country and our world. I almost feel patriotic again, something I haven't felt since the 9/11 happenings, and before that? I suppose when I was a kid I felt it. Now comes the hard part--waiting to see what will actually be done. My prayers are that this president will actually follow through and bring change... I hope that he is not like the rest and is all about empty promises.

I cannot get enough rest, no matter how hard I try. It does not matter if I sleep extra hours, I am just always so tired. My pelvis is in great pain now--feels like I cracked the bone or such. My ribs are in constant pain and my shoulders are so tight. I'd like to spend the next 50 days in a hot tub, thank you very much.

However, at this time, I am also just thankful for being as healthy as I am. I found out today that one of my tour guides, someone I consider to be a friend, lost his newborn baby. Little Sam was born without a heatbeat last week, and despite the best efforts of the doctors, did not make it for more than a few days. I don't know any more details yet, just the basics. My heart goes out to them--I've been pregnant along with them for so long now it seems... and I just cannot imagine losing this little baby. It's really something I haven't even considered--and I'm sure they hadn't either. So, I am resolving to enjoy and appreciate every kick, every pain, every moment of knowing that this little girl is safe inside me... I love her so. I am so thankful for the time I have with her now.... I am so appreciative too, of my other healthy little sweetheart Cedar, and for the wonderful 25 months I have had with her since she was born. Life is amazingly precious--just one more reminder to cherish every moment.